Thank you

Dear Garrett and Natalie
I am going in for some procedures that may be relatively harmless but have the potential to be life threatening.  I fear that I could die and I would not get the chance to tell you how much I love you.  There is nothing as wonderful or as fun or as scary as having a baby.  I loved being a party girl but it was getting old and I knew that there was something that was missing.
After Garrett was born, I realized a happiness and love that I had never known before. I wanted to do whatever I could to create a good life for you. There is a picture of me and dad holding you after we brought you back from the hospital. Ozzie is at our feet and everyone is smiling.  Please remember this photo because although we were not the best parents, we really do love you and always have.
You are so kind and loving.  Garrett, you look out for others and I am most proud of that quality in you. I know that you work hard, not only at studies but at being a good person. Thank you for making my life richer.
Natalie my love you are so kind and beautiful. When you were born it felt like our family was complete. Always remember that I love you and I try so hard to be a good mom even though I fail quite often. My hope is that you have a happy life. I am so proud of you for so many things - your kindness, your hard work, your appreciation of art and music. You look out for me and I so appreciate it. Thank you for making me so happy.

I love you both! Say a prayer for me during this rough patch so that I can overcome fear.
Mom